what's it gotta be ..

i look at my friend's xanga and just look at the pictures he's taken at his college dorm. he took a picture of his collage of pictures and there it is - a picture of the Austin High School Class of 2005. i'm thinking "wow, that could have been me. i could have gone to University of Houston, or University of Texas at San Antonio, or University of Texas at Austin. that could've been me .. i could've been with all of them." i don't understand it. our lives are paths already set out for us .. but i'm wondering when i can actually set my feet off that path and do my own thing. i've always had to move, always had to make new friends. now comes the 'big move' .. all the way down to riverside to start off my own independent lifestyle. what will it be like?

it's something i think about before i go off to bed or when i'm tearing straw-wrappings at work. it's crazy to see everyone i know head off into the world to be amongst the sea of strangers that i have yet to meet. i will lose them all, except for a very rare few, and i know it. the next time i see them, probably some reunion decades later.

i think that i should go out there and meet new people, whether or not it's something i really want or not. you never know, the next person you meet may have the biggest impact on your life as you know it.

i know that's happened to me already ..